I can’t do it anymore
Not the masking, not the smiling.
That’s the easiest part.
But the way to live with all of that
With this broken heart, no one tries to fix
With these hands crushing my spirit and no one cares
With these thoughts killing my soul and no one sees it


I can’t live like that
In this silence
In this darkness
In this coldness
It’s winter - dark and cold
I can’t scream,
I can’t cry
But my silence screams for help and my soul is bleeding.
It is bleeding heavy tears that formed a river
A river that drowns me
And slowly I’m sinking
Slowly I can’t breath
Slowly im dying
Dying from the inside out

But no one notices
Not a single person
Cause they just see the outside
And no one bothers to look deeper
No one bothers to care about me
No one bothers to ask how I feel
Not to be polite, but to really know what’s going on inside

And just like that I’m wandering in silence that screams - to loud
I’m wandering in darkness that is to light - that blinds me
I’m wandering this road all by myself but I can’t see the end - it’s to crowded

It turned spring and theres new live in the tree.
But truly - I don’t know, if there’s ever a new spring in me