Stuck in Time

by Morning Star

As I watch my little angel play,
laughing in the light of day,
I know I should be soaking it in—
his joy, his wonder,
his every grin.

I should be living,
but I’m just watching.
Always scanning the world
for what might go wrong.
Protecting him
is my only song.

But somewhere in the stillness,
I realise—
I’m not really living,
just holding my breath,
afraid of what’s coming next
to steal it all away again.

Dear Lord, just once—
let me rest.
Let me forget the weight in my chest.
Let me feel the night
without fear in my spine.
Just for one moment,
just one time.

She let me down—
that’s a wound I carry.
But does that mean
I should live in the shadow she left me?

She was only human—
and so am I.
But I have a chance now,
a reason to try.

I can be what I needed,
for him, for me.
I can break the chain
and set us both free.

My children don’t have to grow up like me,
afraid to feel,
afraid to be seen.
Afraid of joy,
afraid to shine,
forever stuck
in someone else’s time.