an early suicide nose and a broken cradle
don't let go of his hand
please don't
you've got no idea of how fragile he is

please don't raise your voice
the night is scary and the monsters in his head are out

heart hammering heavy and sweaty palms

why can't you stay on your own
why can't we leave you alone
why are you crying

you've seen it all before

the hopelessness of an unadopted child getting too old
people passing and leaving

you'll end up like you began
utterly alone in your shell

head pounding and tears blurring

you'd rather feel empty than feel too much

bittersweet orange juice and forgotten band aids

why are you letting go
he's crying for you to come back

like falling from a bike over and over again
ears ringing like a wasp nest

the dark is uninviting and frightening

they'll crawl to your brain and you can't hold them back

nobody believes you
nobody believes in you

it's your fault
when will you grow up

no one will pick you up and carry you to bed
no one will kiss you good night on the forehead

so get yourself together and be a man
you probably won't ever be his son
they'd be right to leave you behind

stop wondering why
nobody wants that child that you are

dry your tears and puff your chest

knock some sense to your head stand up for yourself

salty cheeks and soups burning your tongue

falling into open arms won't hold you tight

there's no soft hand to grip onto

you're left alone and it's spooky

left and right and no familiar faces

hungry and wailing like a wounded beast

what are you gonna do about it

nobody will be sorry for your pretty face

you know nothing lasts forever
and they pushed you into that big void

you fell to the cold ground
with the poisonous walls and spike corners

wondering where's your bedroom door

shut and locked forever