This burden is a boulder
I'm just tripping over
The things in my head
They don't align with anything
My debts and my mistakes
I push if I can't break
Free of these chains,
Some are no longer suffering
But I'm still on this train
That keeps going and going
Over and over
'Til my days are over
I stand on the line
And I can't get across it
I'm waving goodbye
To the few who had made it
My thoughts are too tied
Too tightly to think
And I wonder if I
Will finally break
Under the pressure
And I
Just started to cry
The tears can't hold back
For long anymore
The nonsense, the gibberish,
The thoughts are just flowing
Though the party has ended
But everyone's crowding
There's more at the door
But my world is slowly drowning
And when I finally find
A trickle of hope
It never reaches
My blood is shattering
I feel so alone
My teeth are chattering
From being out in the cold
You can't comprehend
The feelings I'm feeling
'Cause when dust turns to gold
I'll be sitting here thinking
And I don't think that I
Will ever stop rambling
On and on about the things
That bother me most
What the hell am I writing?
My hope is long gone
Or at least it's hiding
All the burdens and thoughts
Will smother me eventually
To the point where I'll never breathe
I'm so broken, someone fix me
So I can be happy.