a regimented, simple production. the clock makes sound, birds chirp, people are people all around— i see them, i am not of them, i let them pass through.
a car packed for a camping trip—the same trunk filled for the tenth time, most likely.
a certain focus—a gaze fixed somewhere in the distance between near sight and far, a view undistorted, undistracted, eyes conjuring hypnosis. deadlines as games, percentages just a form of play, pressure nonexistent. the order—a construction, all pretend, yet, more real than anything else.
momentum fuels momentum— whole, and,
defrosted,
mainly
blah blah the switch from intense work to total relaxation and then i write word salad trying to describe the feeling