i hope that my absence bothers you.

i hope that when you hear my name,
you feel sadness and regret.

i hope that you look at the moon,
and question where you went wrong.

i hope that you look at the stars,
through tear filled eyes,
and ask why you hurt me that bad.

i hope that every fiber in your being is aching
as you wonder
at this point in our very existence
“is she missing me too?”

in all truth i am
more than anything in the world
but i’m taking my own advice
the same advice i once gave you

im not taking you back
just because you miss what we had
doesn’t mean you won’t ever stab me in the back

i was stupid before you left
but you leaving made me smarter

so i’m not gonna warn you
as you leave the girl you left me for
thinking ill be waiting with open arms

cuz watching you lose the girl you “love”
will make it all the more sweeter
and i’ll be sitting here thinking
“i thought asians were smarter”