Going back to the same place
I can't even look myself in the face
I was running away from it like in a race
After all those years of massive endurance
I knew that it comes with no insurance
But now I'm back to square one
I would rather be on the run
I can't be here, this is not for me
Please open my eyes so I could once agin see
Like in a room that is so cold and dark
And all I need is a little spark
It's not worth it, I'm leaving my mark
Forever to remember that it's not up to us
It's now my time to go
I cant decide if you are a *****
Or is it just me that's crazy
And you that is lazy
And all I do is not up to me
Because I can not see
My head is not working straight
So how cud I blame you, to live like this, all the **** you ate
I want to know how to make it better
But looks like god has a different weather
Sorry for living like this all the years
When I think straight, it brings me to tears
I could only imagine what you went through, all those fears
I'm happy for you that you moved on to a good place
And don't be sad for me, because we are done with the race
It's not ur fault, it's me now
Sometimes I feel like god gave me the brain of a cow
Problem is, I don't feel it long enough
So then I feel like I'm tough
And I start being all rough
Forget it, I'm crazy
Truthfully, I'm the one that's lazy
I wish it was up to me, so I could've made you feel right
And make your life all nice and bright
But now I see what a failure I was
And there's no hope for me forget the buzz
It's better for the kids if I wasn't there
Because if I was, it will just cause despair
And they would grow up all messed up just like me
Not something that they need to see
So please I just have some small favors
If you could sing to them every night their songs with flavor
And make sure they know how much I was with them in love
Every day even from above
They should growing up, do things right
Even if sometimes it means a fight
That's it for me time to go
Don't think of it as a show
I love you and the kids forever
One day we will again all be together