Everyday I wear a mask over my face. A mask of false happiness and hopefulness. While underneath a permanent frown is craved upon my face. My heart and body both heavy by the amount of stress I am forced to carry.

         Each Stress weighing a ton.

          why can't I just sit it down and leave it? Leave it all behind....

           just leave it.....

         But I can't, I believe it is because my heart still carries a burden, a burden it's Afraid to let go of. The burden of living. Though living is not meant to be a burden, it feels as if it is. Day to day carrying my stress upon my shoulder.

       Carrying it from place to place allowing it to whisper it's nonsense in my ear corrupting my thoughts. Corrupting my mindset on life.

      Why keep it ?.....

     Maybe I am unable to let go, the stress wielded to my mind stuck for the remainder of my life permanently. Forced to live with a broken mind and soul. My mind allowing me to think I am not loved nor cherished by life itself.

     Why am I not loved?....... Am I not allowed to be loved ? What have I done to deserve this abandoned feeling I carry?

       My mind is lost in a void of miss led thoughts and corruptions.

     Will my mind ever be able to clear itself?....

      How?

      How could I relieve my mind of the endless stress that remains asleep on my shoulder?

     It only wakes long enough to disturb my thoughts creating and unclear mindset yet again.