Why am I putting an end to my life
Why am I thinking of dying tonight
Seventeen years
Some good, some bad

I wouldn’t give up the times I’ve had
But it used to be all for a reason
The sun
The moon
The stars
The seasons

My whole life I told myself
How for a good tomorrow
Its worth suffering now
But the tomorrow for those days
Has long since passed away

So how can I possibly believe?
That any day I will receive
There are too many people
Living for the same dream
Yes, everything is as black as it seems
Out of the blue,
My eyes start to tear
Out of nowhere,
The crying appears
Why get up each morning?
Why face the day?
When none of it matters anyway?

Committing every hour of every day
To today and tomorrows hard earned pay
Yeah. I know. That’s what life’s all about
View me as worthless.
I want out.

Eternal sleep sounds better to me
Hell?
Nothing is worse than this life could be
I don’t want to bring anyone down
I don’t have anyone to hang around

Except for him
The only motivation
But being with him means
The crime of theft
Robbery of his time
And soon his smile
Making him live his life on trial

I can’t go on
This can’t go on
Wanting to share myself with him
But battling boundaries from outward in

My body flattering inside
My emotions colliding inside
I’ve had all I could
Nothing left to give

“You can do better”
That I always hear.
Sorry, I ****** up all the way here
Letting you down with the choices I make
Sorry, your happiness I didn’t mean to take

Life
Instead, I’ll take mine
Then, all will be fine
Love’s felt most at loss
Goodbye