Why Mom? Can I just ask, why? What did I do to you to deserve this? You say you love me but this is not love. This is not love. Love is not hitting me in the face. Love is not hitting me anywhere. Love is not yelling. Love is not cruel words you say to me. Love is not physical or emotional abuse. Love is not alcohol. Love is not drinking by yourself in your room. Love is not drinking with people who use you. Love is not putting alcohol above all. Love is not putting alcohol before me. Love is not supposed to create hate. Love is not abuse. Why, Mom? I'm begging you to stop. I'm on my hands and feet begging. Please, Mom. Stop drinking.