nothing much done, another deadly Sunday afternoon, as always expected. sometimes I think it's these boring Sunday afternoons which takes me to the end. not yet, but surely sometime not far away, when the sun shines and for life, people pray. I look it over as I always do, something this time makes it feel new. though I miss you and wish you were here by my side I can't deny I feel good not to have you on my sight. so I guess it's again, how it always used to be until maybe some Sunday afternoon, I'll make myself free. you don't know what I mean.