I'm tired, exhausted, worn and numb,
I feel my time is growing done.
My mind is blurred, just clouds and doubt,
The silence screams
I can't tune it out.

They circle me, say they care,
But I see through their practiced stares.
They wear concern like clothes for show,
As if good deeds make blessings grow.

They think if you give, you'll get it all
But grace, not merit, breaks the fall.
To hold no grudge, to give with love,
To lift when others push and shove.
To stay when failure fills the air,
And offer light, not just a stare.

To love without a second thought
Is that the truth my pain has brought?
Have scars become my sacred sight?
Did suffering grant me second sight?

But how can that be, when I've turned away,
When I've cursed the dawn and fled the day?
I don't want kindness, peace, or light
I only pray to end this fight.

I push them all, I choose the dark,
No whispered hope, no inner spark.
Yet still I mutter, soft and low,
A final word to let God know.

And in that breath, a silence deep
A calm that stirs a buried peace.
The sky above
so vast, so true,
The stars, the moon in silver hue.

A single tear begins to fall,
God has always been there through it all.
Despite the rage, despite my cries,
He’s walked beside me, never hides.

I bow my head, no need to speak,
Forgive my pride, forgive the weak.
Alone, I thought I'd lost my way,
But God just wanted me to stay.

To sit, to breathe, to finally see
That grace was there surrounding me.
So for a while…just a while…
Alone I’ll be, but not exiled.

I’ll wait until I’m truly free
Surround my life with peace, in love, eternally.