But he worked so hard
To build his career!
I think to myself
before submitting his name to smear.
Neglecting the humiliation ritual
he effortlessly performed on me.

Three years went by without a peep,
but out of the blue,
he used my vulnerability
as I hung myself with it,
so easily.

Is it just me?
To feel, as a woman
is it just easy
to give up
and hard to give in?
Easier to be as small as I can be,
to put the entire world at ease.
Release all this self-inflicted anxiety,
get on all fours,
get on my knees.
Hand over my autonomy.
Find some sort of peace
in the patriarchy.