I wish I could erase my memories
The ones that repeat in my head
The ones that I can't say out loud
The ones that keep me up at night
The ones that nobody knows about
The ones that I can't bring myself to share

I wish I could relive my memories
Every time I lived in the moment and didn't record anything
Every time I last talked to or saw someone who's no longer in my life
Every time I met someone not knowing they'd become important to me
When I heard a song and tried food for the first time before it became something I loved

I wonder who & where I'd be
If I had different parents and was raised differently
If I lived in a different city or country
If I made different choices & decisions
If certain things didn't happen
If I didn't meet the people who were & are in my life

If I could
Time & time again
I would go back to the past
Even though I know how it's going to end
It would be worth all of the sadness & pain
Just to be that happy again