If I could
I would sleep all day
but I can't
that would be too much

If I could
I wouldn't get out of bed
but I can't
I don't want to get used to it

If I could
I would cry my eyes out
but I can't
I feel too numb & broken

If I could
I wouldn't eat anything
but I can't
I don't want to starve myself

If I could
I would move out
but I can't
I don't have enough money

If I could
I would travel
but I can't
I don't know what's stopping me

If I could
I would change how I was raised
but I can't
the past is the past

If I could
I would let my parents in
but I can't
my personal life isn't their business

If I could
I would wear what I want
but I can't
I feel uncomfortable around them

If I could
I would express my emotions
but I can't
I suppress everything to get by

If I could
I would love myself completely
but I can't
I have insecurities

If I could
I would go to the past
but I can't
everything happens for a reason

If I could
I would erase my feelings
but I can't
they'll always be there

If I could
I would see my future
but I can't
I know it's all going to work out