Waterfalls in my eyes
Blurry vision & tears of fear
I've drowned a million times

I lose control when I'm asleep
150 heartbeats per minute
My lungs collapsing with every breath

Created from my own thoughts
A tsunami of panic swallows me
Time & time again

I spiral like a slinky
My body sinks into a pool of fire
Falling apart like a house of cards

Everyone's a bit OCD
It's a personality trait
Organized, clean, and afraid of germs

You can't be a disorder
It's uncontrollable & incurable
Crippling, & paralyzing from the inside-out

Only I need to do this
A certain way & number of times
Until it feels "right"

Ignorance is bliss
You self-diagnose & joke around
I suffocate in this permanent reality

Anxiety is a deathbed
A ****** up mind game
An earthquake of self-constructed self-destruction