So over this fight
Done staying up all night
Telling myself this is alright
But this is my life.
A purpose to obtain
Yet i spend my days hiding away
Smoking away my pain
And putting on a fake face

Each hit i take
Feels like a bit of relief
With a smack in the face.

How could i be so weak?
How could i let a chemical control me?
Is it just the rush i seek?

It helps me get through the week,
But when its time to lie to asleep,
I cant help but feel all the shame
Ive buried underneath.

Answers, i seek.
I don’t want to treat myself this mean.
Through the things i eat,
And how i cope to get through my misery
Discipline, i need.

How could i be so weak?
I let a chemical
Such as nicotine
Control me.

I fade away
Into the blank space
I close my eyes,
And tell myself,
Just one more day.

I am not a sheep.
Fear and doubt have expanded within my psyche
And taken over what I truly believe.

I know I have the key.
All i need to do is one thing,
And the rest will fall into place.
Trust and believe,
The universe is listening.

My guides are waiting for me
To reclaim
The parts of me that im scared to let free.
My power,
My talent,
And my frequency.
It needs releashed.
The circle is not complete
If I keep my gifts just for me.

I must master self control
To do what is good for the soul.
So i can be free,
And truly be me.
Im halfway there,
But im gripping so tight to this pole
Why do i think i cant let go?
It feels like if i do,
The ocean will swallow me whole.
But really, home is where ill go.
The home thats been waiting for me
To grab the key
And step in

I will be my friend.
Care for myself
Reach ultimate zen
Patience is running thin

My life is not a game.
I am sick and tired
Of this recipe
That only ends
To a road of obsolete.

Nobody knows, the smile i put on is just a show.
If i can do anything,
Is to make me proud of me.

I know what i need to do.
Decide and follow through.
Maybe you wont even be so blue.
Youll be glad that you took the chance
On taking care of yourself again.

Some people, dont get that chance.
You dont need to live life so fast.
Trust and believe,
There is more than you think..
Rooting for you.
On your team.

– be the one who says they can.
Be the one who outlasts and adapts
Be the one to make people believe,
But first,
I must believe in me

Aligned
I am not out of time
I will recover
From all thats happened to me,
From this body that feels like its deteriorating.


I will  commit
Embody self discipline
And show me,
That i AM on my own team.
No more working against me..

-klarity