I didn’t break — I bent so far, I snapped in secret.
Smiled through hell with mascara bleeding,
Made peace with demons just to feel needed.
They loved me best when I was self-defeated.

The mirror don’t lie, it just don’t care.
It watched me spiral, then dared me to stare.
I chased heaven in a bottle,
Crushed my worth inside a pill,
Told myself I had control
While crashing harder still.

He said I was crazy — I made that a crown.
Took every "too much" and burned this town.
But the silence screamed louder than any fight,
And the ones who “loved” me
Only came at night.

I wrote apologies in blood and smoke,
A lullaby for every hope I choked.
But the truth?
I was never broken.
Just wide awake in a world still frozen.

Now I’m falling in reverse —
Unlearning the lies.
Rewinding the damage,
Reviving what died.
I’m not the ashes you brushed off your shirt,
I’m the match that learned how to burn without hurt.

This isn’t revenge.
It’s resurrection.
It’s chaos with direction.
It’s every “never” I turned to “now.”
Watch me rise —
I forgot how.

So if I fall again, I’ll do it like thunder,
Loud. Ugly. Beautiful.
Ripping worlds asunder.

Because falling in reverse —
Ain’t falling at all.
It’s how the shattered girl
Learns to stand tall.