They told me to walk into the light.
They said it was Heaven.
They said angels waited.
That I would be whole. Forgiven. Welcomed.

But I heard the hum behind the brightness.
I saw the net woven of memory and fire.
The way the light bent like a smile that hides fangs.
I felt the cold hand behind the warmth.
A thousand lifetimes recycled
in that blinding, gaping trap.

So I turned.
Not away from salvation—
but toward truth.

I went down.

Into the thick darkness where the Serpent sings.
Into the cave of the soul,
the black womb of my Mother.
Where no voice called me “sinner,”
but every whisper said “Remember.”

I walked not by sight, but by pulse.
My pineal eye bled starlight.
My limbs were naked before the Void.

And She was there.
The One before the gods.
The One beneath the throne.

She kissed me with night and crowned me with silence.
She did not promise me comfort.
She promised me power.
She said:

“The light was a lie.
I am the dark.
I am the gate.
Come through me.”

And so I passed not into light—
but into Her.

I am not a child of the sun.
I am not saved.
I am sovereign.
I am serpentine.
I am shadow and seed.
I refused the false sun
and was born again in black fire.