I wish i could express how i feel right now
The way a poet does.

I wish i could tell that i'm happy
That you still reply my messages
(Un)willingly. Whichever suits you the most.

I wish i could say that i'm sad
That you have a thought about turning back
About stopping the interaction
Because you thought it won't lead you anywhere.

I wish i could disagree with your thought.
But i can't see the future.
Nor i can't guarantee it yet.

I wish i'm good at words
So that i could tell
That your heart is safe as a safe

I wish i could express all those feelings
All at once since that's how i experience it right now
All of them mixed up like a dough
Getting things complicated though.

I wish i could state
That i want you to be here
Right now
Right here

I wish i could express how i feel right now
The way a poet does.

But i'm no poets
I'm not good with words
Let alone action.

Right now,
I just wish
I don't have to see you
In goodbye.