Everything was going perfect
until I remembered you.
I was happy for the first time in a solid month,
then you invaded my mind like some virus.
You spread around my body, leaving me with memories,
The feelings of the memories
Shame
Horror
*****
And you wouldn't ******* leave!!!
He asks if I want to curl up and cuddle with him,
and, oh my god, does my body crave someone to hold me,
to truly love me.
My mind cries out, wanting him to make me whole,
But I can't.

            You ruined me.