Why do i feel so lonely
No matter where i am
Why do i overthink scenarios
That have not yet entered my life  
I cannot make up my mind
My plan is all over the place
I’m afraid to make the wrong decisions
Afraid of loosing face
No one can help me
I’ve built my wall too high
I cannot accept advice
My mind has no space left

So i’m left to my own decisions
This is getting me down
Timing now takes  over
Not looking forward to the phone call
A call that will put me in a corner
I’ll then have to decide
Do i stay with the past beside me
Or seek a life somewhere else
Never have i felt so lonely
Scared of a future unknown
Can i start again with my memories
This is all i think about
When i cry at night , when i’m all alone .