after everything
we went through
you hit me
with words
i didn’t think
i’d hear again
but of course
you were always
good at surprises

i guess now
it’s my turn

3 months
17 days
and i finally
found the way out

you were special
you really were
but i think that’s gone now

some part of me
will miss us
will miss the late talks
the dumb jokes
the little routines
that made it feel like home

but the stronger part
the one that had to wake up
says
you brought more bad
than good

and i believe it

my heart tells me
this was the right choice
even if it hurts
even if i still feel
your name
burning behind my teeth

i hope
for both our sakes
we never meet again

let’s stay strangers
forever

you were someone
who meant something
for two years
maybe more
maybe less
who’s counting now

and i loved you
but i hated
the fear
the guessing
the what ifs
that made me forget
how to enjoy the now

i was always waiting
for something to fall apart
and maybe that
was the beginning
of the end

still
i’m glad
and i hope to god
this is right
i know it is

because nothing
that starts
by turning your back on god
ever ends
where peace lives

and you know that

i’ll give you this
you always knew
how to stay cold
when the world burned

i admire that
honestly
wish i could
do it too

maybe one day
i will