maybe if you knew 5.27.25 (5:09 pm / 18:09)
maybe if you knew that i suffered
you wouldn't ignore me like you do
or maybe you would
how would i know?

maybe if you knew that i have been in pain
for every day
for years
since a few months after my eleventh birthday
you would understand

no matter, you say
it'll be alright,
you say
because the only pain you know
is a headache or cramps

not the kind that feels like it's ripping you apart
not the kind that feels like you are on fire
not the kind that feels like your bones rubbing against each other
not the kind that sounds like a creaky door
not the kind that tastes like bitter pills
every morning
and every night
and every day

all the time