Your words feel like razor blades cutting my skin
My mind is racing
“I really ******* up this time”
But no true apology

Every word pushes the blades deeper
The pain you give me
The worry you give me
The amount of guilt I feel

Every touch is like a knife through my heart
Every feel is like my skin is burning off
A drug is what you are
So addicting
Yet so painful to me
So bad for me physically
But so good for me mentally

Or are you..
The torture you put me through
Brings me flashbacks from when I was young
Watching him laugh as she beat me
Watching him hold me down so I didn’t
“Squirm”

I wanna be set free
But i want to keep you
Be better.

Let me free
Let me squirm from your grip
Please let me go
Stop holding me down

Watching her be tazed and taken down in front of me
Watching you hurt me over and over
Dragging me down further and further

My heart is ripping
My heart is dropping
Everything slowly falling

Self love gone
Confidence gone

But my love for you stays
Why?
Your acid
So painful yet can’t help but love the pain
Want it constantly yet want it to go away

Please stay
But please set me free
Find a balance in between

I need you
But I need a better version

Set me free quit stopping me from squirming..