Your message popped up,
And my world stood still.
Three years later
Your words cut to ****.
I lay there in darkness,
Professing my will.
Only for you,
To take it back still.

You didn’t mind
Tearing my world apart
You dangled your touch
Then stabbed me in the heart.
You said you didn’t love me,
And we would never be friends.
You gave me a week
To be good and just listen.

I crawled on my knees
Chasing answers from you.
As I was Losing my mind,
Your arrogance shone through.  
As you casually ignored me,
Played me for the fool.
Left me there waiting,
For approval from you.  

I promised I’d be softer
And ask you for less.
If you’d just let me,
I could pass the next test.
We could have fun together,
Like before all this stress.
You just watched me suffer,
And wallow in my own mess.

So casually cruel
With the words that you choose.
Carving your own path,
Ensuring a scar from you.
As I begged for truth.
You swatted me around,
Before your claws gave mercy
And let me loose.

You then said it was over
That it all was just a game.
I signed up for it,
You were not to blame.
But what if it doesn’t matter,
And all I want is you.
Could you let me earn back
My spot in life with you.

Because you showed me lightness
When my world was the darkest.
Your touch felt the safest,
And you held me the closest.
Your kiss felt like magic,
And filled me with wonder.
Your eyes were the only ones,
I wanted to be under.

I kneeled down below you
Told you I’d be anything for you.
You told me don’t bother,
You’ve already been through.
Taking all of my bones,
You crushed them with yours.
You told me I was nothing
Nothing More than a *****.