i'm so proud of you
my heart is absolutely brimming
with adoration
my eyes brimming with salty tears
because this is the beginning of the end

i wanted to stay so i could say
all of the things i didn't wanna say over text
but i left.
because i couldn't bear
for you to see me cry

i imagined kissing you on the football field
as if we were young and in love
but you're leaving for combat
and i can't imagine waiting
for so long, all of those months without you

you promised to write, right ?
i wanna hear from you.
what would i do without you
yanking me through freshman year
like you had me on a leash

i watched you walk across the stage
accept what you've been waiting for since you arrived
before i even knew you
and i don't wanna confess i cried
but i ******* bawled

i watched you wink for the camera
the pose you stole from me
at ava's camera, that stupid girl...
the one that took you from me
wasted time from my life

i watched you walk and wink
like it was the last time i'd ever see your sparkly eyes
like it was the last time i'd ever see your affluent smile
the whole world is waiting for you, m
and you'll be living your life without me.