“pretty eyes” I said to him when we first met, capturing his attention. “remind me of crystal clear waters and forests on a rainy day” I slowly continued saying, watching his lips curve until a smile was shaped on his face, a soft beautiful smile. He thanked me right away, saying that was the best compliment he had ever gotten. I smiled back and said that was impossible, he was far too handsome to had never received such a compliment like mine. He smiles even more after that and blinks in astonishment as if he's not sure what was happening. He then looks at me so deeply that makes my legs tremble and suddenly I’m blushing and smiling like a little kid. I can’t stop looking at him. I got lost on how perfect the little freckles on his nose were and in the way his curls were falling on his smooth skin. We stare at each other for a while, never losing eye contact, appreciating meticulously the tiny and minimalist details of each other’s faces, when suddenly he starts laughing, a contagious funny laugh that makes me join him. Out of nowhere we’re both laughing like we’re old friends who have known each other for a long time, when in reality we were just two strangers who, without knowing by then, had fallen in love for each other so hard that the universe would later have to find a way to connect us once more. Now, 5 years later, I repeat the same thing to myself “crystal clear waters and forests on a rainy day”. I repeat it over and over in my head as I struggle against the weight of my soaked clothes. My eyes are closed, my body stopped fighting and my heart almost doesn’t beat. I try to think of his eyes once more as I sink deeper and deeper into the translucent and blue waters of his favorite beach, where he had drowned himself, hoping somehow that nature will bond us together once again, since he had all the natural beauties within his eyes.