When I die Let me be Queen for a day Let me prepare for death as for a wedding I don’t want to go Fading & losing Life inch by inch along the day until friends & family say “Her mind is gone visiting other worlds mostly of miseries” I don’t want to cry out in the night Scared and scaring those who in sleepless misery bathe my rice-paper skin out of love or duty Let me not go a Burden or burdened by pain, insanity, dementia Let me say good-bye Lucid and happy A final farewell party Before a final sleep of peace