It’s strange how fast
my heart dropped you.
Because the past thousand days
have lived in shades of blue.
Darkened by the
unfinished business of
my unspoken truths.

I relentlessly crossed your boundaries,
reaching out by text.
Multiple numbers downloaded,
I’m sure you never knew
when I’d pop up next.
On my knees, I begged
for scraps of your humanity,
feeling like the child I once was,
crying out for her family.

You punished me for being
too much,
and for not being obedient.
You said if I ever wanted your
love again,
I first must learn to repent.

You held your power over me,
like a cowardly, tiny man.
seeing past your twisted persona,
I no longer want to hold your hand.
Instead I cut the string that connected us both,
releasing the admiration I once held for you,
like my own sacred oath.