PEOPLE TELL ME TO LEAVE YOU, BUT I LOVE YOU.

...is this about me ?

no. it's not. (...is he serious ?)

i have everyone telling me
that you aren't good for me.
but i wanna be someone to you.
...
i want you back
as my friend, yknow ?
ava took the one person i could shamelessly give myself to
in more ways than one.

i get it
understand that
i keep our friendship private
but not because i wouldn't call you that
but because you know a lot
and you can use that against me
and other people could use you
to get closer to me
i don't like to be weak
or seem stupid
and i don't wanna tarnish my reputation.

m, why would i ever use that against you ?
that works both ways.

i know you wouldn't.
you're the first person in twelve years
that i have truly trusted
so i'm very different, regarding trust and precaution.

...
so i hide you.

m, you make me feel like you want
my time
my attention

but i can't tell if you mean it.

and i don't have much time left with you
so i'm trying to give you all i can.

i get it.
but when we talk, it's like one of us always has something going on.

i know, i know.
and i wanna be that person to you.
the one you can trust with everything.
(the one you love ?)
but i don't know if it'll be reciprocated, yknow ?
i don't wanna give you the best of my life
when you can't even give me the time.

i shared my most intimate sides with you.
so i don't wanna hurt myself again.

i get that.
(does he ?)
i trusted you, too.
but the thing that makes it different
is that i'm emotionally stronger than most.

hey ! we both are.
that's why we're so good.