A bridge is burning under the sea
as your breath I hear louder than my screams.
A heart is drowning, and the sirens are singing with the beats.
Have you been waiting long for me?
I ran from my home to stay awake in my dreams.
I wish you could imagine how I feel.
It's like the heaviness is digging into my body to find nothing underneath.
How can I type this pain?
My bones want to get out and hang themselves on the screen.
My head is looking for a shoulder to replace what's been missing inside my brain.
Have you been waiting long for me?
Fading into a horizon where the moon is the nightmare and the sun isn't real,
walking outside of my shoes,
dark clouds are moving under my feet.
I've been patient. I've been sleeping with my sword under the blanket,
but nothing changes except the clock hands.
I wish a coin could make the deal with death.
I wish I wasn't so eager for it to set me free.
I wish I wasn't the one who had to leave.
But tell me—
Have you been waiting long for me?
'Cause I feel like no one can hear the sound of my soul that wants to flee.
My fate turned to blank pages a long time ago;
I can't understand why I am still here.
Just to circle around and pray for an end.
But who cares how I've been?
I am the sinner. I am the sin.
I am the one who abandoned you when you needed peace.
So tell me—
Have you been waiting long for me?