Where did everybody go? I used to have good friends now they are all no shows Is it because I'm at life's end? I can remember when, I was a social butterfly but I guess that was then because I'm barely still alive Here I am all by myself, in a lonely hospital room, can everybody else smell, the sterility mixed with doom? Nothing to hear but the TV and the beeps of machinery As the nurses check on me carefully, I fall in & out of sleep My children come to see me in my new room, I hope they can erase, visions of needles & tubes I shoo them all away, when the doctors come, don't want to ruin their day, because I'm not coming home I try to put on a brave face, smile &tell them, I'll be fine but that's not the case and it's always on my mind
I wrote this during several serious hospitalizations. I almost died many times & wrote this in my hospital bed.