All these words
Float in my head
Tossing like the sea
While I lay in bed
Crashing upon words
Like "I wish I was dead"
Ones laced with him
"Absolutely gorgeous" he said

How do I lay so calm
When everything's a mess
It's so up and down
I smile and then frown
Tears down my face
As I say "Everything is okay"

It's not though, it's not
I've tried so hard
For forever I have fought
It has gone on for too long
I'm tired of pretending
That nothing is wrong
(m.p.)