need to stop replaying the memory why does it live under my skin? at the bus station, i’m watching these moments pass by my head i’m starting to wish i was her but i don’t want his body nor his recklessness. i’ll never be a girl you need but then why did you tell me all those falsities? for me to keep them still in the cavities of my chest, to not dare release them from their ribcage prisons? there i go, back to the memory, back to the arms that weren’t ashamed to hold me back to the rhythm of what seemed to matter but now it just fades and i’m expected to let it dissipate. can you blame me for wanting to resuscitate it?
just gonna leave that there.
written: 4/18/25 (title written 4/11/25) published: 5/5/25