When I was younger I craved attention Because someone stole it away I wanted to play with mom and dad But it wasn’t just me How can a girl go from only to oldest That quickly? I cried when mom loved them more And I cried when dad said I was being childish I was only two Guess that’s what they expect when your oldest, To have a mature, stable daughter That will clean her dishes when the others don’t And her room spotless To this day I won’t live up to expectations Never have and never will There will always be something for me to do Because I’ve messed up everything else.
When I was younger i would hit my own head Out of stress and anger Guess that’s what I get for being oldest I’ll put stress on myself even if I don’t need it And I’ll criticize everything I do because that’s all I’ve had my whole life Dad always yelled about how my grades ****** And how I’d never have a life Or a boyfriend If I kept this up
Guess I’m the messed up daughter with the messed up face I was told to not touch my face So I’ve grown not to love it And even now when I’m guilty I’ll spare the blood Draw across the board like it won’t scar later Guess that’s what I get for being the eldest daughter