even if it hurts me
i can grow numb
but i have to live
and wait forever

the pain
isn't worse
than the shame
you make me feel
just when you mock me
just when you block me

just know
i also hate myself for hurting you
just know
i also hate myself
for being so short,
for always going back and forth

what if he's in his own world?
what if there's another girl?
what if he abandoned ship?
there's nothing else that exist

and the pain
just might make me die;
but at least i tried
cried, and cired, and cried
just to end up here
feeling no more tears
after all these years
i still love you
like i did before
there is trust no more

i have confidence that you hate me
for all the awful things i be
and even if you hurt me worse,
i still blame myself first

oh, i
would stay here forever until i die
won't ever get no therapy, won't even try
i'll just watch the screen as time goes by
i'll love never another man like you
never abandon you
never let go of you

never love another man like you