Don't look at me.
When you look at me with a smile,
you must be mocking me,
silently.
Making fun. I'm a joke.
Look at me.
When you look at me, for awhile
I feel recognised,
not forgotten
and not just anyone, until I choke
on *Don't look at me.
When you look, your eyes flicker my way
you must be disgusted by me,
I'm an eyesore, an annoyance,
the space I take up, the words I say
an irritant, an inconvenience,
an offence
for just being there to see,
there to hear.
Everybody knows
A joke.
A joke.
This is how it goes
I choke.
I choke.
Look at me.
Since you woke
I've been right here
for you to notice.
Look at this.
It is fear
This fear
This is fear.