I gave you a third of my life
Almost exactly 10 years of it
After so many years you changed
After so many years my health spiraled
You couldn't handle it anymore, obviously
Because you started to act so obnoxiously
Leaving me to care for myself
Because you abandoned me
Like the nicknacks on your dusty shelf
You stopped helping
You stopped caring
You stopped hoping
You stopped praying
You even stopped loving me
Every time I cried out for help
You gave me excuse after excuse
And when you finally did help
You did it half assed or wrong
Because my conditions always got worse
So in the end, i suffered from spousal abuse
It's been said that you were trying
To put me in a hearse
Because you went and messed around
I left you after I realized our love was
6 feet under the cold, harsh ground
I left when I realized you had feelings
For all our mutual friends
And not one of them spoke up
Or dared to come clean by making a sound
I left and you slept with all our friends
In that one small, yet big city town
For the longest time, I was bitter
But I came to understand that it was you all along
Who ruined my personal love for myself,
You were the one who stopped me
From singing my fight song
But in the end, I still managed to came out on top
Stop blaming me and putting my name in the dirt
You knew what you were doing,
I should be the one who truly feels the hurt
It's not my fault for the drugs you started to pop!!
Because you pushed me into the arms of
a man whose love never stopped
To this day he's still by my side
So I guess I owe it all to you in the end
For introducing me to my ride or die
For giving me my true blessing
Because in the end, I thought you were the one
But it turns out, you were just 9.5 years of a lesson


Stephanie A. Ludwig
04/30/2025