Once again sleep eludes me
my body refuses
its warm embrace
heads a little cloudy
awake 3 days
2am headcase mode
cats fight outside
their high pitch
ear splitting shrieks
massacre silence
could hear a pin drop, prior
a slice of light steals through
a tear in the curtain
hits the wall
like a swords edge
then darkness all around
henry passed today
i kept telling him
he was too old to
be doing that ****
bonnie found him
hanging in the closet
she’s in the hospital
says she cant breath
hell, none of us can

empty streets
echo of lost voices
bloated and reeling
sunlight drips from the heavens
retreats into the ether
darkness fills the air
the cold winds cruelly mock
a suffering of which I accept
a price I’m willing to pay
and all this simply put
the weighted cost of vice

All is turning cold and grey
I await the winds embrace
Yet, I cannot escape this darkness
Fear flows through me
Like shards of glass
Each piece sharper than the last
I sit in dank rooms
Stare at vacant whitewash walls
Through eyes as hollow as my soul
But there’s nothing there I care to see
Hands so unsteady
Heart pounds in my head
Can't stop the voices
They swirl like vacant dreams
But say nothing I want to hold onto
My requiem for madness
Spins a lonely tale
Of fractured moments
And empty spaces
The turning point of yesterday
Started years ago
Can’t pretend it’s not so anymore
It's hard to live
with deaths obsession
It waits silently
Out there in the night
Sometimes the water
Too wet for my essential face
Refuses my reflection
And sometimes
My absence frightens me