Man, when it came to you
I couldn't wait for it to be over
For you to finally be gone
You have no idea what you put me through
Just pretended to be interested in me
Treated me like I was a *******
You made me uncomfortable every time you said
"Shut up ***** and bend over"
I was shocked, confused and lost.
I wanted to be seen but at what cost?
Did things I've never done before
But he left one day,
And that was the last time he walked through my door
He texted me later on that evening
and said something like;
"I don't want to be with you anymore;
You have too many ready flags."
Again, I was shocked, confused, and lost.
I thought to myself briefly "Me? Red Flags?"
"Are you serious right now?" I texted back
That was the last time I ever received a message from him
He had demons that were starting to show from within
And I didn't feel safe anymore,
especially while being intimate
I needed a break, I wanted a break
He'd just always laugh and shrug it off
If I didn't do what he wanted
That's when threats were beginning to be made
He'd just say "You said you liked it rough"
I nervously sighed and responded with;
"Yeah, I used to. Now I think I've had enough"
"*** is supposed to be consensual;
Not so nerve wrecking and tough."
The emotional and mental damage from this man
Took me by surprise when I wanted to die
At the fate of my own two hands


Stephanie A. Ludwig
04/27/2025