This situation has gotten me to see how wrong I was treating you, just so distastefully. I've stopped doing the bad things that I was doing and also stopped using that bad stuff I was using. Its been 36 days now and will be more. I want to share this with you *** Im not like before.  

Since Im getting better with the pass of each new day.. I'd like you to see it and then maybe you'll stay. When your on mind altering substances or drinking your life away you say and do things that you normally would never say. People don't need that kind of abuse, and if you say "no" I  will understand since I was just a muse. I never meant to treat you so terribly foul. Id take it all back if I possibly knew how.

If you loved me and wasn't able to say it,... if that was even somewhat true then you can still love me especially after all of this time and what we've gone through. Your worth it to me since your the one I want and I will forever be true.

There has never been another man that can compare to you. I have always wanted you  from the very start when you would make up little stories that captured my heart. I have always had a strong connection with only you and I hope that you have that feeling inside too.


I want to love you forever and always be by your side..theres nothing I will keep from you...I have nothing to hide. I want to start out fresh and forget all that's gone on...if were meant to be togetherthis wont take too long.  Your my ultimate love, my one and only dream. Please let me show you im better and that I can love you unconditionally and never be mean. Please consider it and maybe give it a try...theres no other I will desire and yearn to be happy ever after unless your that guy.  <3