Maybe, i want popularity
That's why i hate it so much 'cause i don't have it
Maybe, i want to be a part of something
That's why i fall apart 'cause i don't have it
Or maybe, that's what i thought i percieved about being "connected"


Do you know what it feels like to be so disconnected?
Like you really don't know what's going on?
But everything's fine when i don't try to understand what's going on

And everything's on fire when i try to feel connected or be a part of something
Like toning down myself;
Well it's still necessary to tone down yourself, but don't do it for everyone? Idk i could be wrong

And my life is just fine
why should i put on the energy for such life that i don't understand
Just do what i know and be nice
It's not that I'm better than anyone
It's just i see things differently
Or is that what's going on with everyone?
They already know nobody's going to understand them, and they won't get anyone either?

So with that common ground they bond with each other easily
Whilst i'm falling behind 'cause i think about it too much?
Now that i don't think that much
It turns out there are people like me
I can see them
And feel connected
And it turns out
It's everyone(?)
Even though the bond is temporarily temporary
Now i don't have the grudge from people leaving
Or doing me wrong
'Cause i know it's their perspective
Or i just don't understand and just apologize then make terms
Sounds a lot easier

Idk man
But it's peaceful just to be myself even if I'm not by myself when i don't think about it that much