Am i dumb
I really thought this would go well
Of all my hope you destroyed every crumb
and somehow
I still feel bad
Like i did something wrong
Like i ****
Ever since that day i want to run
Run away from all the pain you caused me
For every emotion ive felt because of you
Because of you I am numb
I can’t believe i really believed you were different
I guess i really am dumb
I’ve waited days for you to show that you care
Even years
And within that
Every night i still shed tears

Shouldn’t this be different
Shouldn’t we be close
The idea of being related to you has honestly been gross

I guess that was the day
I couldn’t handle my pain
I shouldn’t have said anything
No I should’ve
The conflict in my brain
Really isn’t worth the pain

You know i really tried
I really did
But why am I the only one
It seems that from me you hid

But i feel so dumb
Because somehow
We can be related
But you’ve caused me pain
Of my hope
My happiness
My sense of being part of you
You’ve destroyed every crumb
And now i have to wonder if im dumb