I guess spilling the beans means ruining everything. I am not ashamed. Don't bother feeling anything. It would take too much for a pinch of reality. And too much of your energy to care. Oh my, did it **** you to have emotion. Could it make things worse to spit things out. Or does it make it better to hide. And tell me I am not aware. I know what I have done. These shoes fit well believe me. And I, ALONE, am not ashamed.