I-
I am insanely insecure.
I have trouble speaking up &saying what i need to say.
I blame my lover for deep wounds within me. I do no work and blame any one who gets close enough to know that within i am actually a really thoughtful and caring and tender person.
I use all this knowledge to bolster my sense of self.
I use all these weapons to put everyone at a distance.
I am the reason those around me a uncomfortable.
I am a liar. I am fraud. I am horrible human being.
I understand this at the deepest level of myself. I whisper these words to myself whenever i am alone. Whenever i am in the dark.
So that when i awake i have to fear what i truly am. Who i really am.
And who am i?
I am weak. I am insecure. I am a jealous beast.
I am Snow White's step mother.
I am Adolf ******.
I am everyone who has everyone done evil to torture and harm humans animals plants.
I am the fear that behaves in such a way that i will never realise that i am horrible.
I am horrible. I am terrible.
I am just me.
AND
i am not i
i am a
dream.