feeling stuck is nothing new to me. it's nothing unusual to me usually, its how it shouldn't be. but lately that's how it has to be. i guess. i haven't found the reason yet. but i bet it's standing right in front of me. only problem is it has this glossy blurry coat. it looks sorta gross. it looks like something i have to discover on my own. so does that mean i have to be alone? it's sorta of a solo journey. it's sorta of a draining discovery. there's a lot of uncertainty behind this glossy imagery. its gonna take some time for me to see whats ahead of me. so do you mind, holding me? please?