Let's get this straight, I understand I've likely the leading role Or at least lent a pivotal hand At thwarting myself at every go
Contrary unintentionally Speaking with nothing to say Yet saying it anyway To all in ear shots dismay
Bless this belligerent heart Too stubborn to be told That this **** is getting really old If this was my first hand I'd fold
Dawn stole upon us Before anybody noticed Now, before my debts are called in Not even a pair, yet I'm all in
After all this time I'd like to believe That I'm at least being honest with me No way to really know, unfortunately The whole idea is me lying to me
So why does this seem like a mistake Aftertaste of nostalgia in my mouth I made a promise I don't intend to break When I said forever I meant it, for goodness sake
Regret is a cruel master With the voice of my own cruel laughter Better that than complacency Luring me back to disaster
I just keep thinking out loud I need to quit while I'm behind Wish I could lose what I found when I lost what was left of my mind
More than whether or not to be, What matters to me is the quality Your absence the pinnacle detractor And the only one I seem to factor
So where does that leave me? Alone but finally free
Of the facets to your bespoke affection, The one that bothers me the closest to none, Your lack of credulity in my contrition Fickle as the winter sun No faith, even less appreciation
So where does that leave me? Just myself left to interrogate
So where does that leave me? Praying I'm the man I claim to be
Find it in you, yet another try Closed your eyes before I could shine These things tend to take their time And I know I have taken mine
How cruel, all your efforts dashed A check, written, signed, never cashed Here I am, finally worth a half a **** Your liquid investment, alas
So where does that leave me? Where does that leave me?