45 degrees to the left on a two lane road Would stop the screaming Stomach no longer boiling in its own acid Just drowning in black coffee and take out Sweat no longer leaving a cartoon outline on the sheets Just need a cool ring pressed against my palate They said it would be cheaper Coffee quickly out spends the rot gut Staring through gleaming glasses Rather than the amber round, looking up Smiling and swirling around A dancer in the dark My own symphony Playing for me, just me As I shake shake shake It was always either the DTs or the cold A ***** soaked cocoon of the moth I am now Not right Never quite Roll the dice Let the monthly chips fall where they may Collect like them a thousand purple hearted liver spots Build a castle of coins Circular towers, thrown stones in millerβs glass lighthouse Addict yourself to getting better Its the only way forward Even when you are being pulled backwards