Deep breath
In and out
I never thought this day would come
The day I say goodbye to the love of my life
The father of my child and my best friend
Goodbye in the sense that his words won’t flatter my heart and tummy anymore
But someone else’s
Everything that we been through
Every memory that we created
And the stupid love we shared
Gave me life
But lately I’m not living anymore
I’m fighting to survive
I fought so hard
Mentally, spiritually and physically too
I even shed tears like I was singing the blues
But it’s obvious
that those battles I cannot win
Has someone ever treated you like something they would put in a garbage bin?
Crazy how once upon a time
he said I was his world
That one day he would give me all the diamonds and pearls
A lovely life
And I’d be his happy wife
We’d take on the world forever
But I guess we are the two birds that won’t flock together

Love dangerous
And I know that now
I wish I could go back
And slow  time down
To that one moment when he said “would you be mine”
But time goes fast
And the clock never stops ticking
And that’s how I knew there’s always an ending after the beginning

I have no regrets
Only gratefulness
For the experiences and lessons this sailing ship taught me
Thank you for doing everything
That you’ve done
For the love you had to give
And the discomforting guidance you shared
Baby I’m thankful for the beautiful memories and the times you’d show up
But this time around not so much
Saying goodbye
is breaking my heart
But we have to sometimes break
We sometimes need to feel the aching feeling of pain
To understand how real something was
And what it took to build it up
But this is life
And since we are stilling living
Let’s say our goodbyes to love making
But put everything into co-parenting.